Is it possible to laugh at the struggles your mental illnesses put you through? In my opinion, yes!”
Like this experience I had at a job interview, when I was hit by hypomania just before I entered the meeting room.
The most embarrassing job interview ever.
2 things: I’m clumsy and the hypomania kicks in when I get extremely excited.
So, after having been unemployed for years because of depression, anxiety and being overmedicated I finally found some meds which stabilized my bipolar episodes. Great.
I then applied for jobs, being tired of having nothing to do. I had applied for a job in a well know company making medicine for Diabetics all over the world. The salary was high and the job seemed easy.
I then got an email invitation to a job interview from this company…. the interview was the next morning!
Let me remind you that I hadn’t had an actual job for 8 years…. which means my CV was one big fabricated lie. I now had less than 24 hours to memories. I also had to read about the company and since the job interview was early in the morning, I couldn’t take my sleeping pills, which meant I would get no seep, at all.
I was so excited and determined to get this job.
Oh yeah, maybe I should tell you as well that I have memory like a goldfish and the concentration of overtired 4-year-old on a sugar rush at 8pm. The “beauty” of having ADHD as well as Bipolar.
The next day I got on my bike. So tired! My brain was exhausted, I was so nervous and still so excited.
Once I found the place, I had to go through a small changing room, where I had to take of my clothes, put on sterilized clogs, a silver jumpsuit and a hairnet. I looked like a space man and I found that so funny I could hardly hold it in. Overtired, nervous, excited and not having someone to laugh my ass off with by the fact that I was going to an interview looking like a canteen lady-spaceman. It was so hard not to laugh out loud, but it clearly wasn’t the right time or place.
When I came into the factory, I was offered coffee in a machine, probably not the best idea to drink coffee at this moment, because I had reached a full-blown hypomania.
I then entered a meeting room, with 6 people around the table. It shocked me, so I spilt my coffee on myself and the table. But determined to make a good impression I went around the room to shake their hands…. still with coffee on my hands… tripped over a cord from the wall to a laptop, which disconnected and would have fallen on the floor if the guy had not caught it first, I then landed on my seat in front of the manager and said “well that went well” and laughed. I got the job!