You try to take the phone to find the right route and get you both to the destination safely. You’re a bit annoyed with him, but at least he didn’t do anything bad on purpose. When you try to take the phone, he wakes up and wants to be in charge of the GPS again. He gets you both back on the right route and all is good, but he’s still quiet, so you think he might be upset because you tried to take the phone and become unsure of if that was an ok thing to do or not.
You start feeling a bit stressed out. You can feel your body get tense and its like you have a thousand bees in your stomach. This drive has been longer than planned, he’s changing from sweet to quiet, you don’t know where you are and you don’t really know the guy. When you ask him of everything is fine, he assures you that all is good, but on the inside he has been afraid that you like him less now, because he had been distracted and dosed of so you got off the route, but he doesn’t share this with you.
Anyway, it seems that you’re on the right route now, which makes you relax, plus he said all was fine, so you start chatting now. Share personal information about your life and asks about his life. He shares too. It feels nice to be open with each other. He then gets quiet again and you worry that you shared too much personal information and some of it has make him less interested in you. Once again you start feeling stressed out, your hands are sweating and your thoughts are racing and ask him if everything is ok. once again, he assures you that everything is ok, so you choose to believe him, but you can’t shake of the feeling that something is wrong. Turns out that he had forgotten to tell you to take a left and feels ashamed of that. He doesn’t want you to know, so he is quiet because he’s trying to find a new route that will get you to the destination.
You’re getting tired from driving and the uncertainty of why he keeps changing from chatty to quiet makes you feel uneasy. The fact that he says everything is ok but you sense that it isn’t makes you start to overthink, so you can no longer focus on driving, but you have to. At this point you need the GPS and ask’s him to give it to you. You then get it, type in the address and put it in the holder. You explain to him that it’s not because you don’t trust him with it, it’s just that you’re so tired now, that you just need it as simple as possible. Plus, this way you can also enjoy the music together and you take his hand. This assures him, so all feels good.
At some point you need your hand to shift gear. After you try to take his hand again, he instead uses it to scratch his head and you feel rejected. You overthink again, did his head really scratch or was it because he didn’t want your hand. You wonder if you should try again, but you fear the rejection again. From getting so stressed so many times, you’re now completely distracted and extremely tired. Pressure is building up inside you and you need to park the car for a bit to give your brain a rest. You explain to him why you have to take a break from driving, he says he understands. You go to a café to eat. He takes your hand; you kiss and love looking in his eyes. It seems like he enjoys this as well. So, you feel a bit refreshed, get back in the car and drive again.
You both start chatting and laughing while driving together, but then his phone rings. He talks to someone for 20 mins. Not about something special, just chatting and laughing. You wonder why he picked up the phone in the middle of the two of you having a good time and just kept talking to the other person for so long. Once again you start overthinking.
“Does he find you boring, is that someone he likes better, did you say something stupid or rude?”
Now your stress level is through the roof. Your body is shaking and you can’t focus on the GPS. Not only are you too tired to drive, it’s dark, you’ve been off the route several times and now he prefers to take to someone else besides you, just leaving you to yourself. When he hangs up, he apologizes and tells you that it’s a friend he has been trying to get a hold on for ages, who lives in a dessert and rarely have phone access. You try to be understanding, but you can’t figure out if you feel this is true or not. It turns out it is, but you still find it rude that he didn’t at least shortly mentioned that or apologized when he abrupted your conversation and took this call. You would have done that. It would be so easy to do and considered.
He tells you that he would like you to meet this guy someday and maybe travel there together. That surprised you and you think he wants a future with you. You then tell him that you’re going out with friends next weekend and would like him to join you. That seems to make him happy and you both talk about if you should meet before that and what time. The conversation is flowing, but suddenly he changes his mind. He thinks it’s going too fast.